Doer and Identity

If I think everything I do is done by Shiva

Then I am Shiva

If I attribute everything that Vishnu does is done by me

Then I am Vishnu

If I say everything I say is said by Nisargadatta and not by me

Then I become Nisargadatta

Whoever is doer in you becomes your identity

If I think no one is doer 

Then I become Absolute

Seeker is no Special

My dear Seeker,

It is good to know that you have started seeking your source.

It is also good to know that you have read so many scriptures and met so many gurus etc and have learned about Vedanta blah blah.

I am sure deep somewhere, you have a feeling that you are special and close to something very great. No!

Believe me you are greatest fools of all. Ignorant do not even know the hint of truth, so he is suffering, but you atleast have pointers to that and still you are so miserable.

Shame on you, I say!

Be sure that there is nothing special about you. If Gold finds out after great effort that it is Gold, how terribly foolish that sounds. You are like that.

Regards,
Seeker

Divine Mother

Oh divine mother!

You have been taking care of me always

How did I not notice you before :(

Like mother watches closely while baby sleeps

You have been looking at me and taking care of me, when I am still sleep walking in this world

Oh divine mother!

Here and now is your presence

Every experience I have is touch of your body cloth 

When I go beyond my experiences, you include me in you

Oh divine mother!

I have learned that I cannot love anyone while sleep walking

I am not bothered too, why should I? When greatest mother is with me in me.

Oh divine mother!

I am that spoilt child of yours! oh mother

Who takes you for granted for everything, 

Knowing that you are incapable of not taking care of me :)

Oh divine mother!

Awake or sleep, I am not bothered at all.

Awake me when you like and I will be one with you

Or let me sleep or sleep walk and responsibility is anyways yours.

With little left expression in me, I bow to you oh divine mother.

I bow to you!

Fear, Enemy and Problems

You know funny thing is that we fear our enemies and problems throughout our lifes. This is indication that we are trapped in the abyss of maya. We are just sleep walking.

How does an effort of trying to wake up looks like?

Start seeing your fear as your enemy and root of problems. Result is that you will shift your focus from external world of enemies and so called problems to your inner self. External to internal. self to Self.

This internal enemy is more dangerous than any other enemy in this entire Universe. External enemy attacks only when he is strong and when you are weak. You can be at peace when your external enemy is occupied with something else etc. But internal enemy is so dreadful that he will be awake always even when you are asleep and while you are having dreams he can attack you ruthlessly. He will hide behind your ignorance, he can even hide behind your greatest knowledge, for you fear the losing of your acquired knowledge.

Fight back, I say! it is extremely easy as well as extremely difficult to kill this internal enemy. Extremely easy in the sense that you need to just witness your fear and it will disappear. Extremely difficult in the sense, that you don't even know that fear is your enemy and root of problems, how will you even decide to fight back. You are so engrossed in dealing with external enemies that you have never given attention to deadliest enemies of all, enemy of enemies, enemy of self :). Wake up son, wake up and all dreams will come to an end.

Power of "I do not know"

You need immense courage and absolute purity to say "I do not know".

Fools are those who don't witness this beautiful expression "I do not know". This expression is pointer to the reality.

Because of your limited and incomplete identity, you are bound to not know majority of the things at any point of time, how much ever you learn or gain knowledge.

You see, greatest tragedy is that you don't want to see your own being which is hidden in your "I do not know" expression.

How do you expect to be completely free and talk of mukti by holding on to these biases?

Have courage, no matter what to say without second thought "I do not know". Great blessings and grace will be showered, key to your existence will be revealed.

Don't Confuse Expression with Reality

Expression, it may be in any form, for example: language, behaviour, scientific blah blah so on so forth manifests through body-mind. So it can never be complete in itself, it will always have limitations. It is nowhere an indication of reality, not even close.

When someone shouts at you, don't judge him by saying he will go to hell or he will suffer. No! one who knows reality is the most perfect actor in the world, expression is servant at his feet. Expression has nothing to do with reality. It is just that. That 'it is'.

Mysterious Bias

Suppose I have two concepts A and B. Lets say existence of one is impossible without other. For example: A doesn't exist or cannot be defined without asserting the existence of B.

So A and B depend on each other. Till now there is no bias in A and B. A is in potential same as B. Mathematically they carry same weightage.

Now if someone out of nowhere believes that A is better than B, it is absurd, isn't it.

Concepts like "Good" and "Bad", "Right" and "Wrong" etc are of the same nature as A and B. Potentially they are same, but there is this mysterious bias that we have assimilated from nowhere in us that Good is better than Bad and Right is superior to Wrong.

How does that happen? Did you ever wonder.

For me this mysterious bias is Maya. The great illusion.

Magnify your perception and give credit to things as they are without attaching bias. Enlightenment is all about that.

Trap of Cause and Effect

Concept of cause and effect is created by the mind.

Reasoning about cause and effect is a trap. Bondage is nothing but chain of cause and effect.

There are two ways you can get rid of illusion of cause and effect trap.

First is, to realize that effect itself is it's own cause. Cause doesn't exist apart from the effect.

Second is, even if you entertain the concept of cause and effect. Every effect has infinite number of causes linked to each other. Also every cause can bring about infinite numbers of effects.

Any one of the understanding should free you from cause-effect trap.

Infinite Point of Views = God

If you can see things with infinite point of views, you are God. Actually you are aware of your Godlyness.

Even without awareness of Godlyness you are a God, nothing can deny that.

New born baby which has no mind sees things same as a person with infinite point of views.

Infinite point of views takes you to a plane where mind is absent because it is the nature of mind to point it's finger on a particular thing or a particular point of view and show it as a reason. 

Discussion that never concludes

When any discussion doesn't reach to any conclusion then it has reached to its conclusion.

Reaching no-where is the reality. Destination and conclusion are an illusion.

Hidden Hypocracy

Most dangerous hypocracy is Hidden Hypocracy. What is it?
Let me give an example:

• You think you are very kind and very helpful to people. 
• You think you are feeding poor people by joining some organization 
• Hypocracy: hypocracy in this context is advertising about these so called generous activities of yours, uploading photos of yours feeding poor people, playing with poor kids.

You may be wondering how is this hypocracy? Hypocracy comes from the fact that you think you are being very selfless by donating part of your income and feeding poor, at the same time you want to project your greatness to the outer world of yours, to show that you are great by advertising about it.

How many of you have served others without advertising or anonymously? Let me tell you till these hidden hypocracies are within you no way you will see God, no way you will know who you are although there are tons of literature to help you. No religion can help you. Not even God you believe can help you.

Beauty of Randomness

Beauty of randomness is that it keeps you away from expectation
No one expects anything from a random outcome
You may expect a random outcome
But you can never prove that an outcome of a random event is non-random unless you run experiment for infinite number of times which is impossible


The world you see is a random event
Be free from any expectation you hold from this world, or else you will be disappointed
You yourself are a random event, don't expect anything from yourself too
Realization? even it is a random event, why worry about it? If it is there, don't call yourself lucky, there is nothing lucky about a random event. 

Questions Must Die

You have questions? seriously?
Do you even know that one who answers your questions is only you?
Do you even know that you ask question just to entertain yourself? 
Do you even know that question is an illusion and an ignorance?
Do you even know that questioner is not you?
Why don't you question your questioner and see if he ever answers?


My questions are no questions, they are just reflections of my own being
Questions must die
When questions die, you will know your completeness

Guilt Should Die

Ocean doesn't feel guilty for some wave 
Sun doesn't feel guilty if it's rays don't illuminate any object
You are of similar nature
Guilt is an illusion and a very cunning barrier for realization
Hold strong to the fact that nothing ever happens
Whatever happens that you feel has happened happens for no reason like a wave in an Ocean
Why guilt over random outcome?

Have Faith

Have faith in the perfection, it exists

Don't compromise with it

Don't seek perfection outside

You will be disappointed

Seek it inside

Your faith takes shape of miraculous Guru

He will come to guide you

To show you the inner perfection

To show you that the perfection you seek is you

To show that you are that

That 'It Is'

Teaching after Realization

There is no one to teach
It's only you
Understand this
Urge to teach others and describe glory of the eternal is seed of unknown ego
It should dissolve in the supremeness that you have realized and become
It's only you
Teach and be free from the concept of teaching and receiving
You already know that there is no doer
Whatever happens just happens
You are the teaching
Teaching is that
That 'it is'

Flutter

These waves flutter, they keep on flutter
Whether you reach ocean base 
Or just be a wave that flutter
Once you reach Ocean base
There is no word to utter
Because that is prior to words
Reaching Ocean base gives you the feel
of completeness of that Ocean
Feeling completeness means being completeness
Stroke of realization that you are Ocean base
No one reached the base
You were already there
But Sunrise gradually removes darkness
So sometimes you find yourself as waves
But these waves have funny illusion of memory
Memory has that experience of Ocean base
Moment you recollect that experience
Waves merge into the eternal Ocean 


Don't worry my friend, even if you find yourself as a wave, doesn't mean anything. You still remain Ocean, no one can remove you from Ocean and say "you are a wave". No, that doesn't work. Fluttering doesn't mean you are suffering, you are just playing with your own nature. There is no winning or losing in this game, no happiness or sorrow in this game. No becoming nor disappearing.

Two Ways of Liberation

1. Ant's way (pipeelika marga): -- retain 'I' ness --> practice some discipline --> and involving in satsangs --> to only know the futility of this world and 'I' ness --> drop 'I' ness and liberate
2. Bird's way (vihanga marga): -- question 'I' ness --> believe strongly that you are already liberated and are not what you think you are

As it comes to mind that Bird's eye is the fastest way to achieve liberation, but it needs strong urge to liberate and earnestness. Bird's eye is also known as 'Vihanga marga'. Know more about it through yourself.

Being now and here

Liberation is being now and here.

Think about it.

Ask

Ask who is God and I assure you that you will find him one day

Ask who am I and I assure you that you will find yourself one day and also God

Ask who is asking these questions and I assure you that you will see no questions inside of you one day

Ask what is time and it's relation with you and I assure you that you will find a timeless being one day

Ask yourself, only you have answers

Don't expect answers to come from outside

Even if they come, it is only you who is answering

When you realize this truth

You will one day question that silence that will visit you

Answer to that will again be only silence

That silence will dissolve your question along with your being

Then you become question and also answer to that question

Such an immense power that mighty silence holds

Trust that silence

Know that

Become that

That 'It Is'

Obvious

Eternal light shines behind the obvious

What you take for granted, lies there the key to your supremeness

Problems lies where your attention usually is

Ignorance is where your curiosity is

Mirage is where miracle is

Supreme is where simplicity is

The person whom you thought is retarded has an inner eye

The one whom world ignores is God

Can you ignore me?

When I met you once, you ignored me
When I met you again, you ignored me
Do you really think you can ignore me?
We have been meeting always
We have known each other always
You are not ignoring me, you are ignoring yourself
When you ignore me, you ignore yourself
More you go away from me, more you go away from yourself
I am your source, which always existed
I am that, you are that
That 'It Is'

Present and it's reality

Try to be in now and here. What do I mean by "now" and "here". I mean this moment and this location. If you strictly focus on "now" and "here". You will observe that you are not present. Mind and body both do not exist. This is to be experienced and cannot be taught. 


This fact gives birth to the famous meditation technique, which is "wall gazing". Great masters like "Bodhi dharma" used to practice this technique. Don't try to find this in ancient scriptures, you will only find what they did but you won't find why they did. Explanation for "Why" comes from yourself. Wait for it. 

Bullshit

Qualities, behaviour, conduct, discipline, blah blah blah have nothing to do with realization. If someone tells you that a realized person does so and so and behaves in a certain way. Do not subscribe to such thoughts, it is plain bullshit. External behaviour etc etc have nothing to do with inner state. Now do not argue that realized person may be a mass murderer and all, how come he is a realized person? Again bullshit, without being realized don’t jump on to conclusions. First realize and then let the world know what it is and what did you do. Realized person does nothing internally, although he is doing everything externally. That doesn’t mean he will engage himself in everything outside, he lives every moment afresh and situations cannot pressurize him whatsoever. He will do what is needed at that moment. Now do not argue that, what if that particular moment he kills someone. Again bullshit, realized person is aware that he cannot kill consciousness, because it’s him eternal, timeless and perfect being! How foolish it is to involve in such actions. These negative things are  in your head, you created them, you have colored your world. Realized person’s world is perfect, he will never get any situation where he does something and then feels guilty. Guity, happy, sorrow, good, bad, right, wrong blah blah are your own concepts. They all are false concepts and mind’s creation. He is silence and in silence, no one does anything. That exists in itself.

Conclusions are false. The moment you conclude something it is not true. The state which points to nothing and points to everything at the same time is eternal, timeless and perfect state. Do not identify yourself with any thought that points to something. Nothing is right in this world, and nothing is wrong at the same time, they both are related and hence they are false. The moment you reject something religiously or follow something religiously then you are blind. State where you cannot conclude anything, state which is indescribable using words and experience itself! is eternal, timeless and perfect! No words can explain the truth. You need to experience it, and moreover you need to experience that experience. You need to be aware of awareness, conscious of consciousness.

Can you own all the knowledge in this world? No!
Can you find out answers to all the questions you have? No!
You know what, we are afraid of state where we come from. If I say that I will send you to a state where you cannot learn anything, cannot create opinions, cannot judge things, cannot conclude anything, cannot question anything, cannot think anything, cannot reason about any concept, you will be afraid to go there. That fear is ignorance, and that state is purest, eternal, timeless and perfect.

Oh my realized friend

Why do you think sages do not go out and announce that they are realized? The moment they try to explain it to others, words limit them, how can infinite define itself using finite medium? Next moment, silence which is an infinite medium draws them in and gives them shelter for eternal. Why does silence come in to picture here? Because the moment you try to explain your state to others, you instantly realize about the foolishness that you are trying hard to explain your own state to yourself. The moment you come across contradictory state, silence comes and unites with you and you merge into eternal which never tries to explain itself to itself, it is on it’s own, it is content, it is that. That ‘it is’.

Congratulations friend, your search is over and now you have seen and became that light or aware of that light. Be very careful about false forces that try to make you hungry for praise and recognition for what you have achieved. Be still in the truth that there is no one to praise, now because you have seen that light, you have actually become that light, there is no one to praise you, only you exist, consciousness in you is complete, pure and eternal. It doesn’t need any praise which is just a concept of mind. These false forces will ask you to serve people, and when you show no interest, these forces will try to create guilt in you, they will say “If you are realized, what have you done to the humanity?”. They fail to understand that it is their world where there are problems and concepts like humanity and in-humanity. They fail to understand that being a single wave they are talking to the Ocean itself which treats every wave equally and doesn’t color or tamper with them. Let objects shine with your light, do not worry about the reflections and objects illuminated, they cannot change light, which is you. Don’t worry, now that you have reached the source, great silence is with you, it will take you to your source whenever needed without your effort, and will show you time to time that it is you and you are that. Rest in peace, what you have seen is not delusion, delusion changes with time, truth doesn’t. You know it, you know that, you are that. That ‘It Is’.