Doer and Identity

If I think everything I do is done by Shiva

Then I am Shiva

If I attribute everything that Vishnu does is done by me

Then I am Vishnu

If I say everything I say is said by Nisargadatta and not by me

Then I become Nisargadatta

Whoever is doer in you becomes your identity

If I think no one is doer 

Then I become Absolute

Seeker is no Special

My dear Seeker,

It is good to know that you have started seeking your source.

It is also good to know that you have read so many scriptures and met so many gurus etc and have learned about Vedanta blah blah.

I am sure deep somewhere, you have a feeling that you are special and close to something very great. No!

Believe me you are greatest fools of all. Ignorant do not even know the hint of truth, so he is suffering, but you atleast have pointers to that and still you are so miserable.

Shame on you, I say!

Be sure that there is nothing special about you. If Gold finds out after great effort that it is Gold, how terribly foolish that sounds. You are like that.

Regards,
Seeker

Divine Mother

Oh divine mother!

You have been taking care of me always

How did I not notice you before :(

Like mother watches closely while baby sleeps

You have been looking at me and taking care of me, when I am still sleep walking in this world

Oh divine mother!

Here and now is your presence

Every experience I have is touch of your body cloth 

When I go beyond my experiences, you include me in you

Oh divine mother!

I have learned that I cannot love anyone while sleep walking

I am not bothered too, why should I? When greatest mother is with me in me.

Oh divine mother!

I am that spoilt child of yours! oh mother

Who takes you for granted for everything, 

Knowing that you are incapable of not taking care of me :)

Oh divine mother!

Awake or sleep, I am not bothered at all.

Awake me when you like and I will be one with you

Or let me sleep or sleep walk and responsibility is anyways yours.

With little left expression in me, I bow to you oh divine mother.

I bow to you!

Fear, Enemy and Problems

You know funny thing is that we fear our enemies and problems throughout our lifes. This is indication that we are trapped in the abyss of maya. We are just sleep walking.

How does an effort of trying to wake up looks like?

Start seeing your fear as your enemy and root of problems. Result is that you will shift your focus from external world of enemies and so called problems to your inner self. External to internal. self to Self.

This internal enemy is more dangerous than any other enemy in this entire Universe. External enemy attacks only when he is strong and when you are weak. You can be at peace when your external enemy is occupied with something else etc. But internal enemy is so dreadful that he will be awake always even when you are asleep and while you are having dreams he can attack you ruthlessly. He will hide behind your ignorance, he can even hide behind your greatest knowledge, for you fear the losing of your acquired knowledge.

Fight back, I say! it is extremely easy as well as extremely difficult to kill this internal enemy. Extremely easy in the sense that you need to just witness your fear and it will disappear. Extremely difficult in the sense, that you don't even know that fear is your enemy and root of problems, how will you even decide to fight back. You are so engrossed in dealing with external enemies that you have never given attention to deadliest enemies of all, enemy of enemies, enemy of self :). Wake up son, wake up and all dreams will come to an end.

Power of "I do not know"

You need immense courage and absolute purity to say "I do not know".

Fools are those who don't witness this beautiful expression "I do not know". This expression is pointer to the reality.

Because of your limited and incomplete identity, you are bound to not know majority of the things at any point of time, how much ever you learn or gain knowledge.

You see, greatest tragedy is that you don't want to see your own being which is hidden in your "I do not know" expression.

How do you expect to be completely free and talk of mukti by holding on to these biases?

Have courage, no matter what to say without second thought "I do not know". Great blessings and grace will be showered, key to your existence will be revealed.

Don't Confuse Expression with Reality

Expression, it may be in any form, for example: language, behaviour, scientific blah blah so on so forth manifests through body-mind. So it can never be complete in itself, it will always have limitations. It is nowhere an indication of reality, not even close.

When someone shouts at you, don't judge him by saying he will go to hell or he will suffer. No! one who knows reality is the most perfect actor in the world, expression is servant at his feet. Expression has nothing to do with reality. It is just that. That 'it is'.

Mysterious Bias

Suppose I have two concepts A and B. Lets say existence of one is impossible without other. For example: A doesn't exist or cannot be defined without asserting the existence of B.

So A and B depend on each other. Till now there is no bias in A and B. A is in potential same as B. Mathematically they carry same weightage.

Now if someone out of nowhere believes that A is better than B, it is absurd, isn't it.

Concepts like "Good" and "Bad", "Right" and "Wrong" etc are of the same nature as A and B. Potentially they are same, but there is this mysterious bias that we have assimilated from nowhere in us that Good is better than Bad and Right is superior to Wrong.

How does that happen? Did you ever wonder.

For me this mysterious bias is Maya. The great illusion.

Magnify your perception and give credit to things as they are without attaching bias. Enlightenment is all about that.